My fighting thoughts

Argh, I want to write but I have nothing to write about. I guess I can tell everyone about my angry household of late. Angry household what do you mean? well what I mean is the people in my household are angry not the household itself. So I lay on my couch, it is almost 9PM.. oh wait let me take you back to 7:13PM for a moment. I get off the bus and as if it were a bad omen of the night to come, I see the most hidious beast I have ever laid eyes on coming toward the bus as I left. It was a women who I had worked with at McDonald's and she was very very frightning, so anyways I was able to escape that situation by.. walking away. I then go to my house where as I enter my parents are sitting having dinner. As I am explaining something to them, my father interupts and said "Can you please just sit down and eat?" How rude of him to interupt. I replied with "No I must go to my room, then use the restroom, then I will eat." I obviously did not say this in the most polite manner seeing as it was a reply to a rude interuption. So my father said "ok ok I was just asking a question." So at this point the conversation is over and a few hours pass. Now we come back to 8:45PM or around that time. I lay on my couch watching a show about comedians, its quite amazing now that I think about it. The fact that I am watching a show that is supposed to make me laugh, and shortly thereafter I am confronted with something that makes me want to cry. So at this point in time my father is finishing his shuvelling job outside, and I turn to my mom and ask, "What is dad doing outside?" then my mother replies, "He is shuvelling the driveway and he specifically told me that he doesn't want help." Hmm ok so I didn't go out and help. About 15 minutes pass and he has now come inside and is sitting on a chair watching the rest of this TV program with me. About five minutes before it ended(I know the calculations of the times are off just be vague) He said "Peter put it on 503 please." Knowing the way he is I just change the channel and since I didn't feel like watching sports, I got up... Big mistake. It's funny how one motion of my body which would seem insignificant have such a large effect on the fallowing moments afterwards. So then he says, "Why are you getting up?" I replied with, "I don't feel like watching sports." I wont describe the entire conversation but the just of it is that it was really loud, contained very vulgar language and since there is no getting my point accross I ended up just complying with everything he said. Why argue if you know that the other side won't listen. It is like dealing with religious people, infact it is dealing with religious people because that is what my parents are. So I ended up going to bed feeling like crap, because believe it or not it is not anything but loud violent voices that makes me have these very veil feelings inside, whenever I was at school and there was a fight with two people yelling at eachother I had these same feelings. My mind has always worked a bit different than everyone elses. So I really dont know what else to say other than this is why I spend most of my time at the University. So thats my thoughts for today.

Human Stupidity

I have an idol. His name is Albert Einstein, and he once said, "Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I am not sure about the former." He was right in this statment in many many ways. Firstly, he was right about the universe as we are learning through new advances in theoretical physics, but what I want to talk a little about today is human stupidity. One can never tell whether he/she is stupid or not, because our minds decieve us into thinking that we are very intelligent even if we are not. This is why religious people think that they are right. It is not because they are right but because there minds are telling them that what they think is true IS and if anyone challenges that, they are the stupid ones. I am not saying that all religious people are stupid, because I have met very intelligent people that are religious. I just cannot understand why people with a vast knowledge of the physics of the universe can still think that there is some mythical diety watching over everyone. How does this tie into human stupidity? Well stupidity is only about what you have been taught throughout your life, and how you use that information, in addition to your own instincts. When I walk into a bathroom cubical and see writing all over the walls, I wanter what this person that wrote these things has been taught. I wonder what would make him think that the best thing for him to do at that second was to get his pen out of his pocket and write a volgar slurr on the wall while he is releasing his goods into the toilet. Stupidity is about what people think is the best for themselves, and turn out wrong in the end. Lets take a manager at my work. She wrote a sign to put in the bathroom downstairs(sorry for all of the bathroom references but suitably stupidity and bathrooms just go together). She wrote, "Dont flush this tolet." You could look at this sign in two ways. One being, "hmm quite the typo." The second being, "wow learn to spell." I would look at this sign and say, "yes this person is stupid." But when I really think about it, it all comes down to what this person was taught in school, when she learned to read and write. But if stupidity was about what you were taught, that would mean that her whole class cannot spell toilet. This lead me to realize that it is not just what you have been taught, but the efficiency of ones mind. Her brain perhaps was not able to take in the information in spelling the word as quick as other kids brains therefore now she can't spell. So really human stupidity has something to do with the human mind. Who would've thought. Now obviously if you talk to a neurologist I am sure he would tell you something similar and way more in depth. Though the mind fascinates me, I like physics. So dont ask me about technical stuff when it comes to biology because I just don't know, and this is why this blog is very very boring. 

In conclusion, there will always be someone smarter than you, and there will always be someone that is dumber than you. The dumb people will use physical strength to win a fight whereas the smart people will use there keen intellect and that is just what makes the world go around, in a metaphorical sense... Man that was a bad entry no real stucture.. oh well no one reads this shitty blog and these are just my random thoughts of the day so yeah.

LOST RETURNS! 4 8 15 16 23 42

I am not sure if I have ever stated what my favourite show on television is, but i will now... LOST! This is one of the most well written shows I have ever seen, infact this exceeds the writing of all good movies that I have seen aswell. Lost is like a really really long, amazing movie. So as you might then assume I was tremendously excited when I learned of season 5 premiering on wednesday January 21st on abc. I believe my words were something like this: "OMG OMG OMG" when I saw the first commercial. So ofcourse last nights first two efpisodes did not disappoint, keeping my eyes locked to my television screen for 2 hours. You would think that once they get off the island they aren't really "lost" anymore so how are they going to pull out another couple of brilliant seasons. Well I think that they have done one of the most clever things you can possibly do in this situation. Something that htey always have done right from the first episode is had multiple flashbacks and flashforwards showing the lives of these characters before and after they are on the island. Now though, they have taken it one step further. When you write a show that deals with a mysterious island, and you take 4 seasons showing that the island is basically capable of anything it also opens up the dorr for time-travel. Now that the people on the island are traveling through time against there will, bengamen(my favourite character) is trying to get everyone who esscaped back to the island, it creates endless possibilities for where the show can go next, and therefore, also makes it incredibly hard to predict what will happen next. This is how they have set the stage going into season 5 and I am glad of it. I am really glad that we will be able to enjoy there brilliant writing for another few seasons and I will make my comments every week when there is a new episode. 

Skeptic Idolization

It is monday January 19th 2009 at 8:08AM, and as always I sit in a booth at the University of Guelph Library and prepare to do some mathematics. As I am preparing and setting up my laptop to write a blog entry, I catch a "figure" in the corner of my eye. Uh Oh! Finally the evil spirit from the library has come for me right? So of course I look over and it has vanished!

Ever since I was a little boy I have wanted to see a ghost. Now being a fully fledged skeptic I begin to wonder about these things. For years I had been watching shows like "ghost hunters" and "fear." Hoping to catch some sort of a glimps of these things through my television set. It has occured to me thogh throughout my time watching these that I have never seen one peice of evidence displayed on these shows that is rock solid. That I could take to anyone and say, "here look a ghost." Over the last couple of years I have learned about things like pattern recognition and how our brains tend to make us believe things that are untrue quite easily. Take religion for example. There was a time in my early years of life that I believed in god, and not only that, but believed in aliens, ghosts, and a lot of the supernatural. What people do not understand is that once you actually study and analyse these things and how they relate to the way the mind works. You begin to realize that a lot of this is just a mind that has interpreted the universe in such a way that these things seem like they could be real. Of course with my studies in Physics, Biology, and my personal research into certain areas of neuroscience, I have been able to uncover some of this mystery and realize what my brain is capable of making me believe. A person can be the most intelligent person you have ever met, but there brain works just like everyone elses therefore they are also very capable of being mislead down a path of believing in things of the supernatural. What we must do is begin really analyse and take a look at these certain areas. A man who has always promoted the idea that we should start analyzing hard eveidence rather than anictodal, or any type that can be tampered with is one James Randi, a man that I have tremendous respect for and whom I strive to be similar too. He has taken the psychic phenominon and exposed it for what is really is. He is the host of the "million dollar challenge" where by any psychic who can demonstrate that there power is real will be awarded one million dollars. No psychic has claimed the price yet. Silvia Brown apparently accepted the challenge, and for some reason we never heard the results. It is apparent that she backed out. My mother always believed in people like Silvia Browne and John Edward who have made there living by claiming that they can speak to the dead. James Randi never claims that these people are "fake" he only states that these people hve not been able to present there powers in a controlled double blinded test, and until they can do that we will not take them as real.

I am glad that I have switched my thinking to a more scientific process, for it allows to distinguish what is real from what is nto quite easily. I think that everyone should think like this and I do think that eventually this will happen, because in any case, science will always win because we explore things based on real evidence whereas the other side of the argument will never be able to produce it unless it is actually legitamite. Throughout my life I will try my best to help others to be critical thinkers and I hope in time others will do the same.

My Sara speel

It is January the 15th 2009 at 8:21AM. Location? University of guelph library 5th floor. come and get me murderers! its nice and quiet up here and i take frequent trips tot eh bathroom... but anyhow I feel like i want to write a blog entry about something random so here goes.

This morning at around 7AM i turned on the tv and started watching the today show like i do every morning and who do i see "running her mouth" again? good old sara pailen... or however you spell it. I do not get the thinking process of this women. like i have said in the past i cannot stand stupid people, but i what i cant stand even more than stupid people are stupid popular political figures. I stated right from the get go that sara pailen was going to be a really stupid person to bring to the front lines of government. I can only imagine what it would be like if she was to become vice president of the beautiful USA. luckily that didn't happen but now(since she is a hick), she is getting angry that she lost so she wants to point her twelve gage... or however you spell gage at somebody. So what does she do? makes an absolute moron of herself, by making some rediculous documentary about how she was picked on. Listen lady every time i was picked on in my years of elementary and high school i never went and made a documentary about it, and if one of us is going to make a documentary about being bullied it should be me! but anyways its not like this documentary is helping her case at all. It is onl serving the purpose of making her look even more dense and retarded.. kind of like her son.. oh wow a cheap shot indeed. then again she did kind of take a cheap shot at my man obama with the whole terrorist thing so i think i am obligated to take a few shots at my least favourite, religious, dense, freak of a governor sara pailen. Hell i couldn't even take 30 seconds of my time to find out how to spell her name right. I find it much easier to sound things out when i really do not care. Also she seems to not be taking to well the fact that her daughter got knocked up by some prick hockey player jock. face it lady your daughter is an unreligious hor who gets drunk and sees how many guys she can fuck in one night, oops one of them forgot the condom i guess and now lets give the kid some one silable name like trip or trig because we want to torcher this boy even more.

anyways i have had my speel now about our friend sara. I sincerely hope that she never gets that close to a higher seat in power ever and i mean EVER! again.

Random thoughts for today

Today is the 14th of January and I am on the fifth floor of the University of Guelph library. It 8:12AM and I feel like writing in my boring blog. Problem? I don't know what to write about. Sometimes I just like to sit and write stuff with no meaning or purpose... I have a physics lecture at 10:30AM today. f there is one thing in life that I can say I love and really have a passion for, it would be physics. Physics is so definite, no feeling or emotion in it, no unknowns. All you must do is find the correct formula. Draw a free body diagram, write down what you are given, and solve for the unknown. No guessing, no awkwardness, no nothing, just simple, peaceful physics. Same goes for Mathematics really, only I find that in Physics you must use your mind more. It's kind of like a puzzle, whereas Mathematics is more of Just the calculation. Lately I have been drawing farther and farther away from social endevers. You would think that this is a bad thing but it is possibly the best thing I have done. I hate everything about socializing. I have no idea how people find some sort of enjoyment out of it. "Dude you gotta come to the party this weekend, it will be off the hook." says a friend of mine. Why? so that i can kill brain cells by getting dead beat drunk? and even before I do that so that I can awkwardly meat a bunch of people that I have no respect for anyway? Tell me this. If I am never going to talk to these people in a few years why am I meating them. All a party does is obscure your mind from what is real. It takes you away from the important things in life like (at this point) my studies. Which is going to help me more down the road? my studies or the "off the hook party." I have never found enjoyment in parties and it is likely what miniscule enjoyment that was potentially there will disipate as I get older.

Today I work on English. Not my favourite subject, except ofcourse for the writing portion. I had a question in English yesterday about emotion. This is why I dislike this course. Talking about emotion is not my strong suit. it is much better now though than back when I was in high school I must admit. High school English was just an assortment of group activities that did nothing but help to lower the more intelligent people's marks. I usually would just tell the rest of my group to go away and do the assignment on my own. I found that this method worked quite well. Not relying on other people is always the best solution, because the only one you can ever really trust is yourself, and your cat. Yes your cat. Because cats act on instinct and they are not lazy... ok my cat is lazy but he's good at jumping... alright alright you can't rely on cats either. 

I'll tell you what. Sitting here is so much better than what I would be doing if I weren't here. Working at McDonald's serving a low class of society. This wil definitely be my last job at a fast food restaurant. In fact I don't think I will ever enter another McDonald's. I will openly admit that I am a tad bit pretentious. I only enjoy going to places where I know that the people that I will converse with have some degree of intelligence and I say that in as blunt a way as I can. I can't say that I am tolerant of stupidity because I am just not. I get way too much of it at my own home. That is why I plan to spend the magority of each day here, away from home, and away from bothersome people. If I could pick the most irritating thing in life it would be other people, and I mean that in the nicest way possible ofcourse. "But Peter you are a person aren't you?" Yes and I even cannot stand myself most of the time. I do that most stupid things and I get incredibly angree at myself. I don't know if I have ever writton this in this blog or not but I can be described as an over-analyser, analyzing every piece of what I do and then picking out everything that is bad about myself and just keeping it in my head. It never leaves but I cope.

Anyways this concludes my entry for today.

Boring life so far part 1

This will be a series of entries in which i will explain what i feel at this point in time... how sentimental.

So it is the 12th of january and i sit in the library of the University of Guelph writing a blog entry what a suprise eh. Why am i here? I happen to be working on six courses at once, so why are you writing a blog entry shouldn't you be studying or something? yes... wow this is boring I wasn't kidding when I named this blog. OK so anyways I just got back from a very interesting Physics lecture discussing Electric fields and point charges yes i am a physics geek. So your a physics major than right? nooot exactly. Actually I will be in about a year. remember those courses i spoke of? not exactly University courses, these courses are to get to University so in the mean time I pretend like I attend here by going to physics lectures and taking notes. Wow you are a nerd... but a nerd would be in University by now. Absolutely correct reason number 367 why I hate my idiot self. I made the stupid choice of wanting to go to college rather than university when i was in high school so now, i must upgrade every course to become my dream, you guessed it, PhD physisist. So... that is basically my boring life at the moment, and of course I share it with you on my boring blog.