Random thoughts for today

Today is the 14th of January and I am on the fifth floor of the University of Guelph library. It 8:12AM and I feel like writing in my boring blog. Problem? I don't know what to write about. Sometimes I just like to sit and write stuff with no meaning or purpose... I have a physics lecture at 10:30AM today. f there is one thing in life that I can say I love and really have a passion for, it would be physics. Physics is so definite, no feeling or emotion in it, no unknowns. All you must do is find the correct formula. Draw a free body diagram, write down what you are given, and solve for the unknown. No guessing, no awkwardness, no nothing, just simple, peaceful physics. Same goes for Mathematics really, only I find that in Physics you must use your mind more. It's kind of like a puzzle, whereas Mathematics is more of Just the calculation. Lately I have been drawing farther and farther away from social endevers. You would think that this is a bad thing but it is possibly the best thing I have done. I hate everything about socializing. I have no idea how people find some sort of enjoyment out of it. "Dude you gotta come to the party this weekend, it will be off the hook." says a friend of mine. Why? so that i can kill brain cells by getting dead beat drunk? and even before I do that so that I can awkwardly meat a bunch of people that I have no respect for anyway? Tell me this. If I am never going to talk to these people in a few years why am I meating them. All a party does is obscure your mind from what is real. It takes you away from the important things in life like (at this point) my studies. Which is going to help me more down the road? my studies or the "off the hook party." I have never found enjoyment in parties and it is likely what miniscule enjoyment that was potentially there will disipate as I get older.

Today I work on English. Not my favourite subject, except ofcourse for the writing portion. I had a question in English yesterday about emotion. This is why I dislike this course. Talking about emotion is not my strong suit. it is much better now though than back when I was in high school I must admit. High school English was just an assortment of group activities that did nothing but help to lower the more intelligent people's marks. I usually would just tell the rest of my group to go away and do the assignment on my own. I found that this method worked quite well. Not relying on other people is always the best solution, because the only one you can ever really trust is yourself, and your cat. Yes your cat. Because cats act on instinct and they are not lazy... ok my cat is lazy but he's good at jumping... alright alright you can't rely on cats either. 

I'll tell you what. Sitting here is so much better than what I would be doing if I weren't here. Working at McDonald's serving a low class of society. This wil definitely be my last job at a fast food restaurant. In fact I don't think I will ever enter another McDonald's. I will openly admit that I am a tad bit pretentious. I only enjoy going to places where I know that the people that I will converse with have some degree of intelligence and I say that in as blunt a way as I can. I can't say that I am tolerant of stupidity because I am just not. I get way too much of it at my own home. That is why I plan to spend the magority of each day here, away from home, and away from bothersome people. If I could pick the most irritating thing in life it would be other people, and I mean that in the nicest way possible ofcourse. "But Peter you are a person aren't you?" Yes and I even cannot stand myself most of the time. I do that most stupid things and I get incredibly angree at myself. I don't know if I have ever writton this in this blog or not but I can be described as an over-analyser, analyzing every piece of what I do and then picking out everything that is bad about myself and just keeping it in my head. It never leaves but I cope.

Anyways this concludes my entry for today.