Random thoughts april 21st 2009

The library is quiet today. University term is over, so there are still some students here, but not all that many so it is nice. I've decided to go to school in Ottawa in the fall, so as to get away from the life I have here for a while. It's not that I hate my life at the moment, but there are some things that I would just like to get away from for a while, and also the fact that the program that I will be in there is a good one. So untill then, I shall still come and study at the library frequently, which is where I sit at the present time. The weekend was an adventure. I got very little sleep, so by the time sunday rolled around, I was not having a good weekend. I was sitting in my car, on sunday night, feeling really depressed(probably from the lack of sleep). So I started a bunch of text conversation with all of the people that I thought might offer conforting words that would make me feel less depressed. Apparently it worked because when I returned home, I was feeling better, and then watched celebrity apprentice and went to bed. That show btw it just getting worse and worse as time goes on, yet I am so addicted to reality TV that I just keep watching. Same with survivor, and amazing race, and american idol. It is the fact that I have watched almost every season of these shows that I just keep on watching. While I am on the topic of TV, the new House M.D. episodes are getting better and better *spoiler alert* kutner dying was not something that I perticularly liked, but it was much better than if they somehow tried to replace him with another actor, it just wouldn't have worked. My friend Brooklynn introduced me to House. Is it just me? or is Brooklynn like the coolest name ever. I would be like the happiest person ever if I was named brooklynn, I could be living in poverty and be facing death everyday for my whole life, but if my name was brooklynn while I experience those things, I would be fine with it. Me on the other hand, am stuck with Peter.. which is OK but I think I would name someone... something different than Peter. Something like Elijah, or Benjamen, or Jacob, or Albert. These are anmes with some substance. Maybe later in life I'll change my name, that would be fun. Anyways I think 'll end this here, and continue writing my science fiction novel. 

random thoughts april 9th 2009

Today is the ifrst day in about a week that I have returned to the university after my week long, tremendously awful cold.. yes I don't know how to spell.. good observation on your part if infact you di pick up on that when you read it. So here I am, back at the university library writing in my blog. In the time that I was away, I applied to 5 colleges.. why? because I don't know if physics is really what I want to do anymore.. peter having doubts? yes peter is having doubts and in times of doubt I revert back to an older version of me, in this case the me that wanted to go to college for computer engineering and so it is possible that I will go and do so.

But enough talking about future peter.. what is happening with now peter.. well I am sitting writing a blog entry that no one will read.. wonderful. I got into twitter this week, and I wrote a "tweet"(as it were) about how I was standing waiting for the bus while I listened to lil'wayne with my 8 dollar headphones.. and it is true my headphones cost 8 dollars and the funny thing is, I find the cheaper the headphones, sometimes the better the quality :O insane right? BUT TRUE! Of course this only applies to earbuds.. when it comes to headphones that cover your ears, usually you pay for what you get.

I am sitting in a more open booth with less space today.. it makes me feal a bit more volnerable and also a little self-conscious because there is a girl 2 booths over who is able to see me with her peripheral vision therefore if I look like an idiot, she will see how much of an idiot I look like.. or atleast get a glimpse of how much of an idiot I AM! Most people don't believe me when I tell them I am an idiot, but just spend about a week hanging out with me and you will see really I am not smart. I may be good at physics but that is really just one subject that just happens to be really complicated and hard to understand for everyone else. But honestly like ask me if I know anything about fixing a car and I will ask, "what is a car?" Ok ok that was an exajuration but it's close enough to truth that you should get the just of what I am saying.

Anyways I beeter close it out.. got lots of work to do.

random thoughts April 1st 2009

Today is april fools.. it's a rainy day today and I have a cold, depressing.. just a little bit. Not sure what really started the april fools phenominon but I can't say that I like it very much. Fooling someone or decieving someone is not fun or joyful or whatever makes you happy. All it does is make people angry.. I don't like to be angry.. do yooou like to be angry? didn't think so. So why do we devote a whole day of our year toward it.. or in elementary school a half a day.. I never really unstood that either. Guess the teachers just got fed up with it by the time lunch came "ENOUGH IS ENOUGH CHILDREN! It's twelve o'clock.. April fools is OVER!" Which I can completely understand. Children annoy me enough to know that i should have sympathy for teachers. I also admire people that want to help our children learn because they are the future of our species. The thing is though, I really could care less about the future of our species because frankly when I die.. I am just going back to 1990 so nothing in the future will really affect me. There are few things that I hope for in my lifetime though concerning the human species.. things like religion.. yeah I hope it is gone before I die, even though I know it wont be because no matter how much evidence you present to a true believer, you will always get the same responce which is usually something like "God is just testing our faith right now" That's the thing about religion, it runs on having no evidence and a lot of evidence against it. It just eats that shit right up. No amount of good evidence can get rid of it. The only solution is to find a way to have the children of the future NOT be endoctrenated into thinking that religion is the way to go. We need to teach our children that scientific thinking is the right way of thinking. That eveidence should be present for one to believe something and that we should not just take a claim at face value.

In my cubical is a picture of a bong, and under it, it reads "bill nye" then beside it, someone wrote "haha" with an arrow pointing to it.. interesting. I am on a different floor today.. it is much louder floor but almost seems quieter than floor 5 because of the fact that all the noise together just sounds like a constant like a heater going while you sleep, whereas on floor five there are a bunch of isolated annoying sounds.

I analysed a guy who got on the bus yesterday, he had just bought a new book that he planned to read on the bus, I knew this because as he turned the book open he analysed the very first page with his eyes. He went through each page one by one and looked at it for a few seconds until he got to the prologue. He spent a lot of time on the detication page.. interesting because I ususally skip that page pretty quickly. He also read the prologue which is usually boring so I say fuck it let them get there own deretoes.. that is a george carlin line. 

The lighting is a bit darker in this portion of the library.. hm

anyways I am going to get to work now so have a good one.