very nervous

48 hours.. so close yet so far.. sitting listening to "mad world" and trying to calm myself.. I can't. 48 hours and I will be put in a whole new world in which i am a stranger. But will it be much different than the one i am in right now? Here I also feal like somewhat of a stranger. I am not really close to anyone emotionally anymore.. so why should i be nervous to be put into a new group of people who at least may give me a fresh start? I have no clue. The song changes to 1979 by the smashing pumpkins.

Nervousness

Getting increasingly nervous as the days go by. Only 3 days left in guelph. In a way I am really happy to leave.. in a lot of ways actually.. in fact my whole entire being and every part of me is ready to get the fuck out of guelph. So why would i be nervous as the time approaches in which i get to leave this place? It hasto do with uncertainty. I am uncertain of pretty much everything that will happen as i enter the campus of my school on saturday. I can anticipate what the drive will be like easily enough, but when it comes to what happens next, I am clueless. I ofcourse invision the worst case scenario. Awkwardness and frustration with parents as i move in, and then of course not fitting in with the people in res afterwards. It seems plausible. It is almost certain that my parents will make the move in portion a complete nightmare, and my looks and awkwardness toward people i don't know will take care of the ladder part. So basically I am screwed, and my nervousness grows as the days go on.. can't wait.