Random thoughts August 30th 2009

It's been a long time since my last blog post and a whole lot has changed.. I have no clue where to begin. Guess I will start off by saying I leave guelph in exactly 6 days! Woots! finally getting out! Funny how I refer to it as if i am in a prison but you cannot honestly expect me to think differently. The summer has been definitely a roller coaster. Not sure if i want to just spill the entire contents of it to the entire internet but lets just say i built some new relationships and probably ruined a few aswell.
Speaking in a scientific fashion, I would describe my summer as a sin curve. Kinda started off at the bottom then, then a rapid inclination, peek, and then by this point it has pretty much come back to the state at which it started. Definitely the busiest and most active summer of my life. Every summer up until now has been: video games.. cabin.. video games, tv... camping.. videogames, tv.. off to school! very exciting indeed, but what do you expect when you have no one else there to make it interesting. That is presicely why this summer was so different. I learned this summer, that hanging out with the right people can actually make life fun. Then again dealing with the after math of socializing reminds me once more of why I hated socializing in the first place, hence the end of the sin curve, being right back where i started only the time has changed.
I did hit the big one nine, on july 24th, went out and got hammered at the bars for the first time, it was fun but i am not sure if it is something i would like to repeat. In fact the funniest thing about it, is that now that I am 19 and able to drink all that i want, the desire to do so has completely diminished. I had a friend who asked if i wanted to go get smashed and all i could think about was the fact that i would lose control of my body and have a massive headache the next day. How is that fun at all? It does help when you are depressed though I gotta give it that.
So in 6 days I will venture to the city of Ottawa where I will live in the residence of Algonquin College. They were supposed to give me my roomate's info late july/early august.. still hasn't come.. Yeah i can tell they are really on the ball over there. So this is just great, I missed orientation and I don't even know who my roomate is. I hate not knowing shit that I really am gonna need to know! Anyways it should be an adventure however it turns out. I feal like I have a choice between two lives that i could live while there. On one hand, I could do what I had planned to do a while back, which is be completely anti-social and focus all of my time on my studies, or I could be very social and see how many new people, I can meat while also focussing a great deal of time to my studies. Not a difficult choice for most people. But for me it is. Do i really want to concern myself with all the social pressures that I probably could easily avoid? If high school was any indecation, I am terrible at meating people, so it may just be a failure anyway.. so why try? I did i lot of socializing this summer, and by the end, it has become somehwat of a struggle. Do i want to deal with this type of stuff in college? I have always had a firm beleif that high school students are much different than people my ageor older, so that would probably sway me to think that I should try and put myself out there this year. After all, my skeptic group is full of people much older than me, and I get along with them much better than anyone. Then again, these are people that hold the exact same beliefs as myself. When it comes to my parents.. i dont get along with them.. anyways this is all very off topic, i dont even remember where i am. The point is, I will most likely try and meet people, all i haveto do is mimic this summer except try and maintain it rather than let it fall through for some unknown reason that i still havent figured out.
So, My trip to new york was fun this summer. Saw all of the beautiful and of course not so beautiful but still awesome parts of my wonderful city. I call it my city because I am obsessed with it, and it is mine! jk. I did have a bit of a head injury, slipped in the bath tub in my hotel room and hit my head on the sink. An inch lower and it would have hit my temple, which means i would have died or at best would be alive but probably would have lost the ability to type this. It's great though because it gives me an excuse for whenever i say something stupid.. no one ever believes the excuse but it works out well enough for a laugh.. ok maybe they dont laugh but i think its a good joke so whatever.
I plan to blog a lot while i am in college. Keep the internet, and friends who reads this, up to date on how well or shitty it is going.. hopefully it goes well.. it should but you never know. The roomate is the big concern at the moment. I just don't want it to be some jock.. of course I have come to learn that jocks are really only people that i want to stab when they are between the age of 14-18, usually after high school they are not complete assholes anymore.. most of them anyway.
Anyways I am running out of thoughts here so thanks for reading, if you were able to make it through that mess of words that I call random thoughts.